Bitter sweet...

So, I know it has been a long time since I posted, but I recently returned my work laptop and it has hampered my computer time. It is much more difficult to post when I have to come up to my office with little Raylee. The reason I had to return my work laptop is that I have officially resigned my position as teacher and cheer coach. I titled this post "bitter sweet" because this truly reflects how I feel about resigning. I am so thrilled about the opportunity to become a stay at home mom and be fortunate enough to watch my little girl grown up. I am not so naive to think that everyone has this opportunity, and I am confident that this is the right decision for MY family. However, this doesn't mean that I am not just a little bit sad to leave my love of teaching and coaching. Having a child, and making the decision to stay at home has changed my life completely. While many of the changes are welcomed, sometimes I am just not sure who that leaves me to be. I have always found my identity in my achievements, and I feel as if I have to now find a new identity. I am definitely a people person, and working with high school students was extremely rewarding for me. I will miss my students and cheerleaders terribly. As I resigned last Wednesday, I saw many sad and surprised expressions on my students faces. I am one who hates to disappoint, so this made me have a twinge of regret. My principal had only well wishes for me, and I know that I left an impression on my students and the faculty at my high school. I know I worked hard and even influenced a few special students, so it is hard to leave it all behind. I know the Lord has a great plan for my family, and I will trust in Him to find my new identity. Next to God, and my husband, Raylee is the most important person in my life, and I want to look forward and not backward to the blessings she will bring to it.